i always knew i was different.
too much. too deep. too nice. too smart.
turns out, that wasn’t the problem...
i grew up behind a white picket fence.
the kind built to look perfect and hide everything.
control was normal. perfection was expected.
my mother called herself “mother dearest.”
iykyk.
love came with fear. silence came with rules.
so i adapted.
good girl. caretaker. hyper-independent.
i learned how to survive by being useful.
survival works.
until it doesn’t.
for over 30 years, my body stayed offline.
frozen. disconnected. performing “fine.”
until my nervous system finally said no.
that was the beginning.
i’ve been no contact with my parents for years.
i’m healing sexual trauma. relationship trauma.
marriage pain. mother wounds.
i’m breaking silence that felt ancestral.
grieving what never existed.
doing the work my lineage avoided.
and i’m still here.
raw. honest. rebuilding in real time.
♑︎ sun • ♋︎ moon • ♍︎ rising
hello RBF.
now i build safety from the inside out.
empathy is instinct. bluntness is required.
i read people fast and deep. always have.
my intuition isn’t a vibe. it’s inherited.
i don’t skim the surface.
i work in the wound.
and i rise from it.
every. single. time.
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